The Compass Always Pointed to You
I made a choice once, one I thought was peace.
And in that choice,
I drifted from the one
who had always been my peace,
Even in silence.
You.
My son.
My blood.
My greatest truth. 💔
I never stopped loving you,
Not for a second.
But I believed in something I shouldn’t have.
And by the time I saw it clearly,
You had already paid for my mistake,
With your quiet strength.
You never shouted. You never turned away.
But I know the silence you carried had weight,
And I carry that pain with me every day.
My health has faltered.
My body has taken blows from life.
But I’m still standing.
Not just to survive,
but to become someone you can be proud of again.
There was a line I heard once,
From a man forged in war:
“You live your life by a code. It’s your shoreline.
It’s what guides you home.
And trust me, you’re always trying to get home.” ⚓
That’s what I’m doing now, Son.
Trying to get home,
To the place where your eyes see me,
Not just as a man who made mistakes,
But as a man who owned them.
You have warrior’s blood in your veins, love.
Not because I am perfect,
But because I’m still here,
Building life back up out of ruin.
And when the day comes that,
You face your own silence,
I hope you remember this:
A man doesn’t become less,
Because he broke.
He becomes more when he rises,
From it with grace. 🩶
I owe you everything.
And I’ll spend the rest of my days,
Earning that second chance.
Not through words,
But through the way I live.
Like a man going home.
And if ever the world grows quiet,
And you begin to wonder,
What parts of me were real…
Look to the silence, Son.
That’s where I hid my strength.
That’s where I kept you. 🤍
We are men made of chambers,
Of wounds and will,
Of broken bones and unbreakable hope.
And no matter how far I wandered,
My compass has always,
Pointed back to you.
This isn’t just a letter.
It’s a step home.
One day, I hope you’ll walk beside me
Not because you must,
But because you choose to.
And if not today…
Then I’ll keep walking anyway.
Because that’s what a father does. 🖤
